soul set free

twas grace I've found

1/3/2008

And before I forget or I get atrangled by my own cluthes of guilt and bitterness of unfirgiveness and allow it to birth into hared and something terrible, The gracious loving Lord saved me and set me free

And I will never ever forget this precious werds from the mouth of Pastor Daniel.

and it goes like this:

" Until you learn to accept yourself then is the day of breakthrough",

Pastor Daniel and Mabel, my youth leader repeated similiar werds that truck me so hard and accurately and which that was to explain the 800 plus friendster profile view. man, that really crazy la! and its within a month somemore. Im not ashamed of it. the werd is "self-seeking".

This is because, in everyone's life, attention need to be drawn. For me, I think its unconciously one. Maybe the reason is because I dont feel loved by the people around me. As the bible goes, love is not self-seeking you see what I mean??

As Pastor Daniel held my little small elf head in his fatherly hands, I felt a release, I felt a kind of father's love flowing through me and I really felt so loved by him and daddyGOd. If Im not wrong,I heard him crry for or because of me. What I've been through ever since last year summer. He said many many things that struck me. for like example, " You are/ you need to be secured in God alone." and I replied, saying" how do you know???" and just give a short reply saying" I just know" then, number two, He said " you never accept or love yourself". and by this time, Im alrady very cure, its something really prophetic and he really knows when he was praying for me. then I agreed with him, saying " yes, Pastor Daniel, I have never accepted myself for who I am"

It something really very important

I reallly remember this day. It the day of release and the dayof freedom frmo within and all is by the grace of God that his grace is more than suffiencient for me :)

And even Val said something which really touched my very heart. like, " you know, we've known each other for like 10 years? about more than half of our life?? It just really hurts to see you like this. We all love you and accept you for who you are. Dont listen to what other people are saying about you. Dont, and she repeated sternly with much sisteryl love, Dont listen to them. We're all waiting to see what comes out of this. you have to move on. really, let go and move on"

hearing this, tears welled up fully in my eyes and I cant help to allow the tears to roll down my eyes and we gave each other a warm hug. It really feels wonderful and great to know that people around actually cares so much for me. i was too naive to think that nobody ever bothers, so I dont bother giving myelf attention or to accept and love myself. and man, to this day, Im so wrong la! I ought to love myself. because the only way to overcome this, as what Pastor Daniel Had said, is to learn to love and accept yourself for simply who you are, then you will be able to forgive and love others more. And val said smething like, and one day, ten years down the road, or maybe even shorter, we dont know, you willbe able to share your story to these girls in the youth! and I so very agree with her, Becaue I know many will go through what I had gone through. Although It was very painful, I gained and learnt many many priceless and precious gift of lessons from God :)

and one more thing that pastor daniel said to me was, woman who are able to forgive and love are more beautiful even without anything on their face. yes! Its so true man :)

PastorDaniel, thankyou for being so nice and prayed for me like a father would to his child. Thankyou for helping me to overcome this hurdle in my life and I really feel so happy that everyday is worth living for. Because God loves me so much.

HOONHOON LOVES YOU PASTORDANIEL!