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Monday, February 11, 2008

always sick :(

daddy God,
why am i always sick?
I've been really a good girl, eating my meals on time and the right food, maybe yes or maybe not, but Im just getting sick each and every other day and this is really upsetting me and maybe people around me?
because they have to spend extra effort to take care of me, for eg, sweetie sexy mama like jessica, and poor guy who doesnt know how t hold a girl's hands/ arms de chia chia keng or even teh sweetest candice in the world also have trouble holding me
All i had was maggi goreng and all i had later on was rounds and rounds of puking and vomiting and visiting the oilet more than anyone else
man, it was horrid
I tell you the truth
it was HORRID
even mingjay de dear, kok kian have t say why you go toilet so amny times one.
I cant help it la, you see
haha
kinda spoilt my day
but thank God, there's the Lc play later on at 6pm
kinda made my day, cause i love company of friends and i love playing and teasing many many
in an hour's time, i'll just be a good girl, to stay where i am and not move about
haha
kinda anticipating what role are they gonna give me
haha
im really excited leh!
kewl man!
what i heard was, not many people get into Lc play bt the more sadder thing is OL is better, you receive love from teh students you see
not to say despo or what, it just a nice feeling and gesture you know
haha
im very very sure that the tp student union people know about that
esp when their freshie cried after losing the match and went, because i dont wante disappoint you all! and yar, that
sily girl
was
none other than

me.

HAHA

well, it was just me me me, dont dont laugh at me okie.
otherwise i will emo one
haha!
its not a threat.
it was just me me me
HAHA!

first day of school after chinese ney year, man i had a hard time weking up on time.
was late for church on sudnay and almost late for lecture that morning
math lecture, i was veyr attentive until somebody was calling me in wonderland and i hd to fall asleep for awhile and i decided to wake up and take a walk outside to keep myself awake.
and there, the company of fun and super duper nice friends were sitting outside the Lt, so, i couldnt bear living them, decided to sit with them for awhile. HAHA
they're really nice, esp chiachia, mingjay, kok kian(the guy with nice voice), jessica, candice and mayn many more.
They are bunch of awesome friends who wwanted to help me in my studies
well, i dare to say, my studies arent fantastic now, i lost that confidence of mine you see
i really lost it and had no confidence in myself,
let alone in any other test that i took
basically, im fllunking all the test that i had taken and that feeling wasnt nice
IT WAS HORRID
i had to cry because i got two out of thirty even tho i studied for the test
oh god, am i a dumb kid or i dont have brains? or all i had were just pea brains inside my head??
cant be right? to get two out of 30, man, im really on the verge og giving on my stuides
i do not want to,
but i had no smile, no joy, no drive to even study for my next test, cause i do not know how am i going to fare
with friends helping me, it does help to boost my confidence but with that kinda sucky results, it sure make people around me disappointed, and the worst of all, im disappointed with myeslf
maybe this course is not the cup of tea for me
maybe
mayyyyyyyyyyyyybye
God, how can this be??
i just wante do well and do my parents and my preciousGod proud,
nothing else, i promise.
I'll work hard, send more Ga, if you know what i mean
guardian angels to watch over me
for im always sick and hungry and gastric attacks me
heal me o lord
I dont wante see doctor because i think its sucha waste of money and i nv get well anyways
what to do, tell me la, what to do
how man
exams are coming and im sad
emo-ish
someone, pls help me
im desperate to do well
I'll put in all my effort, 200 percent and i'll try to be smart
and i'll not fall asleep anymore

she wante to learn to play canon in d pls
and she wante to have a grand piano of her own.
soonish soon soon pls
oh man. this feeling of failling everything is just so freaky and sucky
God, help me
God, just send someone to help me
EEEE! i just wante to scream from the top of my lungs!!
haiz. sigh sigh sigh
my language is sigh. yours?
but GOd says all things are possible with GOd
yes God, I trust in you

weee oh weeeet
she yearn
she hope
she wish
she dream
everything she can do
she will
and she's willing to
just give her one more chance to be confident of maybe just herself?

help me.
despo emo kid
in need to help from anyone everyone under the sun

dear God, pls heal me and my gastric :(

flew into your heart at [12:45 AM]

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