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Saturday, March 8, 2008

blah blah blah

blah blah blah
enough of many da pian today, im changing blog for SAFETY purposes because of SOMEONE.
bye people. thanks for being a supporter. i'll stop blogging for at least two months. LOL
see if i can tahan or not.
cause,
im the ang moh LIBAI
LOL

flew into your heart at [5:38 AM]

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Thursday, March 6, 2008

你走了我也不在乎

我的心好痛
我掉泪你也不管
你了我也不会为你掉泪
因为你也不会

主啊，就让我在她的前面消
原来至今我们三个是玩八蛋，不是你的骄傲
在你的里我从来不是一个成功的孩子
只是个废物

flew into your heart at [6:40 AM]

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Wednesday, March 5, 2008

rain rain go away

rain rain go away
come again another day
little children want to play
rain rain go away

and today, I woke up at the earliest, at 2.14am, scaring myself and panting, oh gosh, I was having a social studies exam. LOL. having graduated from secondary school for like more than one year already. LOL. funny dreams I have.

and the other time I woke up was at 6.30 am.
for now, I declare myself, the early bird!

LOL!

flew into your heart at [8:21 PM]

ELF!

and this are update of my hair.

I had those days of sexy long hair days,

short elf hair days,

normal girl hair like now :)

I love to smile

I love to be happy

those people who makes me cry ought to be executed nd put in prison.

LOL

okie, got to go, and Im going to church again, for prayer and praise meeting :) cause..YESHURAWKS :))

flew into your heart at [2:36 AM]

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Tuesday, March 4, 2008

sleepless nights

it really feels terrible to sleep so little everyday.
and get up so early in the morning. today is around six thirty.
today I suddenly woke up at 4.22am, yesterday was 4.45am, and the day before was 4.55.am.
and the next time waking up is already six
and its no wonder that

-headache is always there
-acne's getting worse
-heavy eyebags hanging on my eye
-cui-ness getting severe by the day
-fear gets the grip of me

and dont even mention about how I feel each time I wake up with a dream, then to realise, its fake and it seemed so real. man, I just need someone to tell me, its oki. frowns*

my heart and my soul
I give you control
consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise
become my embrace
to love you from the inside out

everlasting your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
your glory goes beyond all things
and the cry of my heart is to bring you praise
from the inside out ofmy soul cries out from
the inside out of my soul

and this shall be the song in my night when I cant sleep becuase I believe, praise is the most beautiful, in times of adversity. thankyou daddy God :)

hoonhoon loves you yeshu!

what'ever that it the cause of it, I pray that daddy God will just heal me and let me recover because i just need so much sleep. and can you believe it ? I am actually someone who take take two afternoon naps a day and I need around 16 hours of sleep everyday and now Im getting 3-4 hours of sleep everyday and with my so very pack de schedule, I'll get sick very soon and I just dont wante another round of seeing doctor straight five times in a month. and my low blood is getting worse by teh day. just yesterday, went out of the school with my school de LC play de people and when we were coming back, we need to climb a long flight of stairs before we can reach teh over-head bridge of our school. yes, I did, but I felt so breathless that I couldnt talk. I took deep breath but no useless. I rested but couldnt breath in or out any air. why like that?

Im freaking irritated with myself.
Lesser and lesser patience for myself.
God, why am I like this?

and God let me speak with werds that build people up and not ear them down. sorry if I have in any way, grieved your Holy Spirit :(

ar, how bad to start my day
boo.
emo-ish day
:(
I dont feel like going out

nvm. stay home is good. going ddown church later to see my dear pastor mark anyway.
in the weeks ahead, aso many thigns are gonna happen and number one on list is

-school choir performance at alumni lounge
-AS school LC play at OTC
-church good friday musical

all at one go, time is confirmed gonna clash somehow. and its time to prioritise time again.
I must be really sad. somehow I figure out that in this post, after typing for like so long, theres not even a single bit of this "LOL". heavy eyebags=heavy heart you see
nvm, its oki. I think school is gonna be so crazy for me. I have like LC play from 9-5pm and then choir pactise at 5-10pm. no break?? and in addition to my suddenly wake up in the middle of the night, I think Im so gonna fall sick soonish soon soon. nvm. its okie. its easy to forget someone too. yup, talk less and be occupied. be so very de occupied.

and now my number on the list is to start doing quiet time. havent been doig and am guilty of it is because Im really so tired and drained out, so much so that I fell asleep everywhere that I go.

I love the chiense song by jaychou 甜甜的and退后
reminds me of teh cute mingjay with me singing and acting cute. LOL
mingjay, where is your gay partner chia chia? and your dear dear kok kian? LOL
I miss you guys! :)
go out someday oki??

and jaychou look so cute singing the song tian tian de. LOL
cute song. I like! so very de much de lor. LOL

went to meet pastormark and pastor tay just now. and I guess, everything is fine now :)

and she goes "its okie, its alright, alice alice fight fight fight!"

flew into your heart at [4:44 PM]

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Monday, March 3, 2008

cui morning

cui-ness day begins with heavy eye bags.

today all my friends say I look very ah lian-ish all because of my yellow top together with my purple coulour de skinny jeans, three ear-piercings with bling bling studs and also, in addition to my big big earrings I wear,and my haircut including my bright yellow, blue and red nail coulour and oh man, they say, WAH! today you look very LIAN eh. oki lor, never mind lor.

ya, not the first time my friends say i look ah lian, so, that's so surprising. but I talk not ah lian one de lor. I use classy english and and I speak with great eloquence. LOL. like seriously.

and Im adele in the LC play. one of my friend said the character suit me. just like me. i went like wah liew, like that say cause its a little high and keesiao kinda chracter. good lor. nvm. i like can already :) LOL

apologize is the song of the song. very nice. I like.

i wante to go out with val.
i wante to go to the beach.
i wante to enjoy my sleep
i wante a cup of tall caramel macchiato like now
i wante to go on a shopping spree
i wante to buy more jackets, tank tops and nice cute dresses
and oh man, dinner and dance is coming in my twenty plus days time, acne and pimple, pls heal quicky
and pls pls, hair, grow faster faster, my frinch, you need to be more long and sexy and my bhind hair, pls grow nicely for i have no more money to cut my hair already. LOL

flew into your heart at [8:02 PM]

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Sunday, March 2, 2008

cui-ness day :((

cui-ness day :(

flew into your heart at [4:14 PM]

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